Inner Shaman Adventures - Cacao Ceremony 7

As I walked through London, I saw Christmas decorations lighting up the sky. It felt like humanity's last ditch attempt at brightness before the deepest part of our winter, our hibernation, sets in... I was once again reminded that soon I will set foot on the rock surrounded by people of my birth and childhood for the festive season.

Events leading up to this season have been conflicted - this year has been a year of intensity, change, and facing up to the reality of my shadow side as well as my light. I am continually being taught so many lessons - and this month continues to teach me that of love and patience, releasing the need to know outcomes, of letting go, of trying to control situations and allowing the flow to take me where I need to be without losing my voice or authenticity.

I asked cacao for help and insight into how best I can experience my time this Christmas. The card I pulled was stress - I knew I needed to let go of all that caused me stress within familial relationships and friendships before I headed home; I knew I needed to wipe the slate clean.

I drank her bitterness until I felt myself heave at the taste and lay down to journey. I visualised my place of nature and saw St Ouen's beach experiencing rough weather. The clouds were ominously looming, the wind was tossing my hair and throwing sea salt into my eyes; the waves were crashing against the shore with abandon. I knew I was not in a place of peace as I was not in a peaceful place within.

Old Mother Cacao was waiting.

  'Hello my darling.'

She took my hand and said, 'Everyone is family - all around you is family - human, animal, elemental... seen and unseen. You are a tree with deep roots and strong tall branches and all that you are connected to is your family.'

  'Every human being is subject to constant change - never assume a person remains the same.'

I saw an image of my family looking at a corpse of an old me, of who they think I am, wondering why she isn't the same as before. As I continually grow, learn and adjust so do those who are around me. In that image I learned I also need to continually learn to adjust to others too.

  'Darling, relationships come in different forms, we cannot manipulate them according to expectation. You cannot expect a relationship to have the strength of a fully grown tree if you are only at the stage of a sapling. Maintain your boundaries.'

I thanked her for her wisdom and asked her if there was anything else I needed to know.

  'Expect change. Do not cling to anything. Everything is going to change and keep on moving. Do not resist whatever happens in your life - go with it's flow and allow growth. All beings come together to help facilitate a process, do not be limited by human expectation, there are different relationships for every part of this journey.'

  'Change is not something to fear; embrace it and be happy. Adapt and accept whatever life throws at you and understand that everyone has their role to play.'

I kneeled beside Old Mother Cacao and placed my head on her lap. She stroked my hair. 'Believe in yourself and use your intuition as a guide. Remember that I am always here.'

The Shaman brought us out of our journeys and we all took a card, I picked, 'Healing.' She nodded and said, 'Find the middle ground without compromising, all will be well.'

Aho.


You can find my adventures in Shamanism here: Inner Shaman Adventures


Cacao Ceremonies facilitated by: http://www.rebekahshaman.com/



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